So here is the direction for this one: Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it
Hmm. This is ironic as I’m battling diabetes (or, rather, trying to keep it away – and winning currently! Yeah!) and losing weight in the process. I’m feeling better about my body…my health…life.
I am certainly not a size 4. Though, I have been…. Back then I was young, silly and totally didn’t think I was pretty enough, smart enough…or anything enough. Mind you, my parents were awesome, I had good friends and I had somewhat serious relationships with boys. I was not lacking people to TELL me I was enough, but as many young women, I just had a self-image deficiency. I find it very interesting that in my old(er) age, as I’ve put on pounds and a few wrinkles and a stray gray hair or so….I feel more comfortable with ME than I ever have. I am now sure that body image has less to do with body than ever before in my life. I have a great life, I’m a Christian (who knows that I matter, because my Savior died for ME!), awesome kids, a husband that I never dreamed existed beyond fairy tales, parents who have always supported me and loved me (even when I was so very ungrateful for the things they did), a sister that is amazingly strong, an independent niece, a new adorable baby niece, amazing inlaws…friends that are fabulous and a rewarding job that allows me to try to improve experiences of my employees as well as our customers. I am living the LIFE! So why wouldn’t I hold my head high and not worry about what everyone is thinking of my round face and freckled skin? That is SUCH a small thing in the scope of the big picture. I know that I have good intentions. I try really hard. I try to be a thoughtful person…say thank you…open doors for people…give back when I can…pray for anyone and everyone who needs it (and even those who don’t know they do…okay, ESPECIALLY those). So, I am WORTH IT. I am worthy of people’s respect and the admiration of my husband. I am loved and I am so very, very grateful. In return, I am PROUD of my life and my family and my freckles. I am proud that I can walk in a room and know that I might not be the most skinny or flawless – but KNOW that I AM worth feeling like I am beautiful. Because beauty can be a reflection of what you feel inside. And what I FEEL – is jawdroppingly blessed…and ENOUGH.