I don’t know if the title of my post is a question, a statement, or a cry.  Sometimes you think you want or need change and it’s awesome.  It’s just what the soul needed.  Sometimes you don’t expect it and there it is – BOOM.  It hurts, it’s awkward…it makes your insides ache.  Sometimes it just is.  It happens and you’re not happy or sad about it.  You just roll with it and move on.

So many people tackle the “new year” with such fervor.  Such hope and joy and expectations galore.  I just wish I could sit down with a large percentage of them and just ask some questions…why now? what have you been waiting on? what is different on January 1st that couldn’t have started June 2nd or September 6th or May 9th? is there some magical reset that takes place with the tossing of a calendar?

I think we all know that’s absurd. As adults we know that we can start fresh anytime.  We can turn away from the past and move on to a new path.  As a Christian, I know that I MUST turn away.  When you ask for forgiveness, you do so with repentance.  To turn away from the old.  That means you STOP doing that thing that you are asking forgiveness for.  Boy, if teenagers REPENTED to their parents wouldn’t life be simple?  If your husband REPENTED, would you not have a happier home?  So, what stops us?  Being human?  Being weak?  Being sinners?  I am so convicted this week about this.  I am so convicted about having a pure home.  I want this for my children.  I don’t wish to shelter them, no…but I do wish to have my heart softened.  To not make excuses.  To want the best for them.  To want what God wants for them.  To know it’s possible.  To pray for it.  To ache for that.  To remember…Philippians 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”  It doesn’t say I can TRY…it says I CAN.

If you are reading this and aren’t saved, don’t know what it is to be a Christian or don’t know how to ask Jesus into your heart – please do reach out.  I’d love to talk to you and answer any questions you might have.  My email is mrsjmejones@gmail.com.