Have you ever just KNOWN something was going to happen.  So much that you just wanted to – with all your being – make it STOP.  And, maybe you could have? But, probably not.  Either way, it happened.  

I’m feeling that way over this depressed feeling I am having.  I am fighting it with all I can.  But, it is still happening.  I am absolutely feeling it.  Being stuck at home, sleeping a ton, fearful of social situations ~ these are things that most happen as RESULT of depression…not the other way around.  I think that’s the reason I can feel it coming and have been able to mostly hold off the major troubles of it.  I do cry…but sometimes that is due to the pain in my joints.  I also cry because I’m humbled.  I’m grateful that I haven’t had health issues before now….that it’s not worse….that this will pass soon.